Rev. Katherine Todd
When it was evening on that day, the first day of the week, and the doors of the house where the disciples had met were locked for fear of the Jews, Jesus came and stood among them and said, “Peace be with you.” After he said this, he showed them his hands and his side. Then the disciples rejoiced when they saw the Lord. Jesus said to them again, “Peace be with you. As the Father has sent me, so I send you.” When he had said this, he breathed on them and said to them, “Receive the Holy Spirit. If you forgive the sins of any, they are forgiven them; if you retain the sins of any, they are retained.”
But Thomas (who was called the Twin), one of the twelve, was not with them when Jesus came. So the other disciples told him, “We have seen the Lord.” But he said to them, “Unless I see the mark of the nails in his hands, and put my finger in the mark of the nails and my hand in his side, I will not believe.”
A week later his disciples were again in the house, and Thomas was with them. Although the doors were shut, Jesus came and stood among them and said, “Peace be with you.” Then he said to Thomas, “Put your finger here and see my hands. Reach out your hand and put it in my side. Do not doubt but believe.” Thomas answered him, “My Lord and my God!” Jesus said to him, “Have you believed because you have seen me? Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have come to believe.”
Now Jesus did many other signs in the presence of his disciples, which are not written in this book. But these are written so that you may come to believe that Jesus is the Messiah, the Son of God, and that through believing you may have life in his name.
Protect me, O God, for in you I take refuge.
I say to the Lord, “You are my Lord;
I have no good apart from you.”
As for the holy ones in the land, they are the noble,
in whom is all my delight.
Those who choose another god multiply their sorrows;
their drink offerings of blood I will not pour out
or take their names upon my lips.
The Lord is my chosen portion and my cup;
you hold my lot.
The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places;
I have a goodly heritage.
I bless the Lord who gives me counsel;
in the night also my heart instructs me.
I keep the Lord always before me;
because he is at my right hand, I shall not be moved.
Therefore my heart is glad, and my soul rejoices;
my body also rests secure.
For you do not give me up to Sheol,
or let your faithful one see the Pit.
You show me the path of life.
In your presence there is fullness of joy;
in your right hand are pleasures forevermore.
This Psalm is rich.
The Psalmist confesses that God is his chosen portion, his sustenance, the one who holds his lot. I like this because it speaks to the choice God gives us and to the responsibility we have to choose. The Psalmist reports that in choosing God, he has effectively surrendered his sustenance and his lot in life, to God. This is a supreme measure of trust, truly a surrendering, to have God take control over the outcomes of our lives.
Then the Psalmist acknowledges the blessings in his life – how the boundary lines for his life have fallen in pleasant and good places.
I find this confession of gratitude particularly moving because we generally have a harder time truly seeing the gifts we have inherited and those God has given. I’ve found that this season of quarantine has accented for me the blessings in my life. I have others, with whom I can eat and watch a movie. I have folks I can hug and kiss. I am not alone. I have folks I worry about – which means I have folks I care deeply about in this life. I am more acutely mindful of just how blessed I am by those paid the least in our society, the trash collectors, the grocery workers, those who make toilet paper, and those who run around warehouses fulfilling our online orders… I am aware of how much more space I have to quarantine than many, if not most, in our world have. Only a year ago and this quarantine would have rendered 4 people wedged in a two-bedroom apartment. And for how many would even that be a luxury?
I am grateful to still seem well. I am grateful to not have lost anyone dear to this dreadful virus. I am grateful for private transportation – for the chance to get out without feeling vulnerable to a multitude of other people’s germs. I am grateful that my work doesn’t require me to put myself and my family at risk on a day to day basis.
I am grateful. But without a crisis to highlight how fortunate we are, do we actually stop long enough to ponder the ways our lives have been built on the shoulders of others; the ways our parents set us up for success; the benefits we enjoyed of education, connection, and experience? My own experience is that my laments and complaints quite often steal the lion’s share of my attention. So this Psalmist’s awareness of his blessings in life is quite notable.
Then the Psalmist describes his communication with God. He says God counsels him, that his own heart guides him in the night, and that God is always before him. With God at his side, he is secure, he is confident, he is stable and steadfast.
And this my friends, is a feeling quite scarce these days.
How many of us feel confident and secure?
The test of this for me has been grocery shopping. Every day I learn something new, a new way to protect myself, new best practices and strategies, and every day I find myself wishing I’d known more and done better, earlier. Each time I go to the store, I find myself winding up tight, like a coil compressed and ready to unleash. The anxiety and discomfort of my mind manifesting in physical tension, pain, and exhaustion.
But this Psalmist writes that because he has God ever with him, before him and guiding him, that his heart is glad, his soul rejoices, and even his body rests secure. His body rests secure. How I am yearning for that!
It would seem that…
Living life with God taking the reigns and controlling the outcomes…
Living a life in which God counsels us, staying ever before us,…
Living a life of seeing and giving thanks for the blessings undergirding our lives…
This is a life the Psalmist finds life-giving, joyful, and secure.
And isn’t this what we all yearn for? Life. Joy. Security?
The Psalmist is secure in trusting that God does not give up on him but shows him the path of life.
I remember once, decades ago, as a staff member at Camp Hanover, how one of the lifeguards was gathered with friends in staff lounge, cutting up and shooting the breeze. A fellow lifeguard, new to the role, came in to ask a question about lights, and instead of showing her how to do it, he withheld information needed for her to succeed and rather made fun of her as soon as she left. I was taken aback. But isn’t it true that quite often we are more comfortable judging and despising one another, than in helping one another and pointing one another in the right direction?
Our God did not come into the world to condemn the world, but that the world might be saved through God. And here, long before Christ came to walk the earth among us and work his saving acts, this Psalmist understood the heart of God: he understood that God shows us the way, so that we might be blessed and be a blessing. God shows us the ways that lead to life, so that we might have life and live it to the fullest! Thanks be to God!!!
The Psalmist has experience to show him that in God’s presence is fullness of joy and pleasures forevermore.
Do we have these experiences?
Have we tried and tested our faith?
Have we pushed back on traditional teaching to challenge those things that make no sense to us – perhaps that the last shall be first and the first shall be last, or that we must lose our lives in order to find it?
Jesus said many things that folks found it very hard to swallow. And if we are being honest, we will too. But until we raise up our doubts and test our faith, we cannot be transformed by our God. Until we experience God’s timely word, God’s saving arm, God’s perfect provision, God’s answers to our doubts…our confession of faith is often mere ritual.
Do you want to be someone who can honestly say that your mind is at peace and that your body rests secure?
Do you want to be someone who experiences fullness of joy and pleasures forevermore?
Do you want to entrust the outcomes of your life to the only One who truly sees, the master-gardener, the virtuoso Artist of your life?
Until we, like Thomas, question the things we do not understand, until we exercise our muscles of faith – following wherever God leads, until we let go the reigns of our lives and entrust all that matters to our Lord God, we will never know the awesome power and salvation of our God.
When Thomas doubted, it must have been hard. He was alone in his disbelief. And that uncomfortable position lasted for a full week. But God met him. God showed up for him. God answered him!
As we navigate the new landscapes of our changing realities,
As we work and move and shop differently,
As we wrestle in isolation and quarantine,
May we like Thomas squarely face our demons, our questions, our doubts, our desires and hot anger.
May we bring our full selves before the living God, in honesty and truth.
And may we experience God-with-us in new, transformative ways
So that we too may joyfully confess with the Psalmist,
That with our God is life and peace and security
Gratitude, joy, and pleasures forevermore!